April 8, 2010

Eyes

So I've been thinking lately. Well, that's a lie. I haven't been thinking at all lately that's why it has been so quiet around here. What I'm thinking right now is that I'm dangerously close to never thinking again. Have you ever been at that point where you just don't want to force it anymore? That point where you just stop caring? You get to that place where someone could run your toes over with a car and you'd look down at your feet and instead of screaming out in pain you would just shrug it off and laugh. That's where I am right now. It's not a bad thing either. It's sort of blissful really. Not caring is the best feeling in the world. Apathy is happiness spelled backwards just with different letters, look it up. A hot piece of ass could be tied up and wrapped in a bow right now and I wouldn't give it to you because I can't bring myself to give a fuck. I float through each day and it feels so good. I feel the way I used to back when Xanax and Vicodin made the world look so pretty. I miss all of you damnit! I don't know how you're all doing but you better be happy because I am. I'm not in love either if that's what you're thinking, I'm just content. The world is beautiful. You don't need a prescription to see it either, unless you wear contacts.

11 comments:

  1. You have no idea how much I actually understand this.

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  2. Whatever it is ... I want it too!

    You sure it's not love? ... Sounds alot like being in love ...

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  3. I haven't reached there yet but I'm sure before I hit 30 I will!

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  4. I think spring tends to make people feel like this. It's great to hear you're so darn happy :)

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  5. awww poobear!

    really? we missed you too.

    this year i promised to blog every single day, and there are days i feel like tabula rasa. so that's when i put things like movie clips on there. cheating, i know.

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  6. Oh man, you did it again. My burrito got burnt whilst I was reading this.

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  7. I love your writing .... so great !!!!

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  8. That is such a wonderful feeling and a damning one. I love it when I'm in it, but miss it with absolute desperation when I'm not. It's like waking up from a dream, when you are still lazy and warm and not quite sure where you are. Where you lie in your pillows and luxuriate in life.

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  9. Christopher Robin,
    Lemme make it official; You are a kick in the pants. How odd, and weird and crazy is that? To 'think nothing' is far different than to 'feel' something....Which is what I think a run over toe...would produce. Ouch, by the way. I'd probably scream, Loudly! This a.m. while holding my new delicate pink cell phone...and, reading the news while waiting for the bus to pick me up....a young girl, was peeling an orange, and tossed the peelings alongside the way. An old man, with a stove or fridge or something on a handcart...came by and began to yell at her. If I were apathetic, I would have not opened my mouth to defend her. She was a young girl, in the 5th grade. The old man, just started to yell at her. I wasn't the only one there; But, I was the only one to open my mouth to tell the old man he was yelling at a 'Child.' Which drew a crowd, with another man who yelled back at the old man...then, followed him into their place of business...and, made him come back to apologize. He made her cry. Apathy serves no one. Content, on the other hand serves everything.

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  10. "Apathy is happiness spelled backwards just with different letters, look it up." Haha, that got a good chuckle out of me.

    It is interesting that you write about this. We were talking about this in my English class tonight. How the person who cares the least is the most free and happy.

    Then he began to delve into the more serious aspects of this and it was not humorous/interesting like your current attitude, more like sad.

    I doubt you have such a horribly negative effect on everyone around you because of it, though. :)

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  11. I admit, I'm just now making the blogging rounds again and catching up on the past couple weeks. Your April Fool's was hysterical ~ even better was reading the comments :) Glad you're not done with blogging, or sending pictures out of your...

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